its sad that this has to be my update since whenever, but:

im tired of doing everyone's work for them
im tired of being constantly busy
im sorry that im smarter than the moron students in my class and get chastised by some teachers for it
im sorry that i devote way more than i should toward stuff to improve ppu and its image
im sorry that i try too hard to make thing work out
im pissed that i get no gain out of anything relational wise
and im so fucking tired of getting the short end of everything

so here is me saying fuck you to everyone that ive covered your asses for, was overly nice to and saw nothing in return, and to the teachers that are morons. i quit. if you are an asshole to me and think you will even use me for your merit, then go fuck yourself. i will no longer pull your ass out of the hole when you have fucked yourselves over and i will no longer cover your ass when you dont get your own shit done. im tired of trying to hard and knowing that i am not going to see any return for it.

Ohhhhhkay. Here we go...

So we'll start with shows and stuff:

Warped Tour 1 (Pittsburgh, PA): I had a blast. Despite the fact I took a kid which i pretty much close to hate on many different levels as my only passenger in the car, i got through it and met up with alan and cat as soon as i got there pretty much. I saw cat's boobs. That started off the day on a pretty good note. Other than that, I got to finally see bands that I have missed time and time again. Most notable of them:

NOFX, Anti-Flag, AFI, The Casaulties, Thursday, Misery Signals (saw once before), and Valiant Thorr.

Valiant Thorr = most amazing band ever. EVER! Well next to blood for blood, ramallah, and Andrew W.K. That is about it though. They can all interchange places.

I took no pictures at this one. I didnt feel like bringing my camera with me for the whole day. I really just wanted to enjoy the music and see some fun bands. I accomplished that......and i saw boobs.



Warped Tour 2 (Buffalo, NY): Better than pittsburgh hands down. Lee and I made the trek out to buffalo for the day on very little sleep. That sucked, but I got to see horse the band, valiant thorr, thursday, nofx, and a lot of other bands WHOLE sets this time around so that made me forget about the 2 1/2 hours of sleep that i got real fast. I also got the time to walk around and check out tents. I volunteered at the musicforamerica.com tent. Im looking forward to seeing if i get some work at shows through them. I also bought some buttons at some of those tents and donated a dollar at the breast cancer one cause the chick was hot. I also signed up for a bunch of shit to try and win some free stuff. Looks like ill be shutting down my gmail addy. Whoops on that one. Anyways, I took a shitload of pictures at this one. They will soon be at warped.stevejabs.com. Not tonight like i promised, but soon. I was too fucking bored/lazy to fuck with my site today. Buffalo tour slayed pittsburgh's. All that needs to be said.

pics soon at http://warped.stevejabs.com ...soon (before i leave for florida on monday)


Ok that is part one of two. Ill do part two with the say anything/dashboard review tomorrow and upcoming summer plans.

Yo...i swear to ya...ill update TONIGHT! Warped tour as well as other show reviews. My upcoming schedule of the summer, bday plans (even though they are 3 months away), and other stuff. As well as about 120 pics from warped tour. My goal tomorrow is to get them all resized and uploaded.

I also need to do laundry. And start getting ready for said plans that will be up by midnight tonight.

Ok, sleep time.

My brother's wedding went absolutely amazing. I'll have an update about it tonight or tomorrow. Plus lots of other shit to talk about. Stay tuned.

So what i hate about the hardcore scene is this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=udPIxvwMiYc&search=boston%20beatdown

I know that this is old fucking news, and the whole Boston Beatdown dvds have been out for a while, but it's sad that people release this shit and say that they aren't, 'out to make a quick buck.' Fuck that, that is exactly what you are doing. There is no room for this petty shit in the scene and it is high up on the list of reasons why I rarely go to shows anymore. I can understand why some fights happen, yes it is aggressive music, and it can add flame to a fire that was already started. However, take that shit away from the scene. Fight them somewhere else. Don't video tape the shit, put it on a DVD and incriminate the entire Hardcore scene because a few stupid fucks cant settle things reasonably.

At the Jesus Wept show a few weekends back two kids got in a fight over shit that was said in a school lunch line. Instead of taking it out there the one kid said, '..bring it to the mosh tonight.' Well, that is exactly what happened. They got into a fight outside of the hangout and luckily not too many people saw it, but more luckily no one of any authoritative status saw it. It was dumb and petty fight over someone name calling in a high school lunch line. Fucking gay.

Aggressive music doesn't mean that you have to beat the fuck out of each other. Do you automatically take to smack after watching spun or requiem for a dream? Most likely no. So that means that just because you are watching Terror, and god forbid someone hits you accidently while you're getting your bR00tAl MAWSH on, that doesn't mean that starting a fight becuase of it is necessary.

One more thing that pisses me off about this DVD is that they say they are doing it because corporate america is taking over and we are willed into this way of thinking because we are punk rock/hardcore fans. The exact quote is this, "boston mass. - for every middle class neighborhood created, the artist and poor are displaced. For every University expanded, a housing project is demolished. For every corporation built, every virgin records, every fucking starbucks an indepenent or family owned store is put out of business. When someone tells you what this city has gained, what they really mean, is what the city has gained at our expense. We are a group of artists, fuckups, punk rockers, skaters, hardcore kids fighting back. Boston Beatdown is the underground. We are your children raised on Ridilin and Prozac biting the hand that reared us, pissing down our heroes throats. Declaring war on everything. Declaring war on nothing. Music, art, violence, anti-porn, porn, whatever the fuck we want. We will not sit back and let corporate interests steal our culture. Given nothing, we are taking everything. Making this world a place of our own." And you can view this lovely clip here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBSQZT6OsHc&search=boston%20beatdown . So thankfully more than just hardcore kids they lumped in four other groups of people. Im sure that they are glad now they get looked at on an even worse angle too.

Disagree with me if you want to, but I honestly think that random violence has no place in Hardcore. It only brings us down.

you would think that after almost 7 straight hours of slayer that i would tire from it...well you are fucking wrong!

666

Be on the lookout for more shows this summer! I am getting in contact with a few booking agents and looking out for any tours comin through. As much as i am sure that I will lose some cash like last summer, I wanna set up some more shit! Get at me if you know of any bands on tour that you wanna see. I'll put up a real update soon, but for now, I am insanely exhausted (about 6 to 8 hours of sleep in the past 3 days) and I need to fucking crash.

Later kids.

if anyone needs to get a hold me right now you need to message me on aim, s2ksjj. my cellphone is stolen and therefore inaccessible.

chris. whenever you see this, call me ASAP. I want to talk about stuff for this summer.

...its true. im back. a TON has happened in my life between Feb. 20 and now, and I plan on explaining that all very soon. All in all, its been great, not all of it, but like 90% of it.

however from now on this journal is going to be straight up private now. so all of the sweet entries that i make will only be readable by those who are my friends, and those who i know...or trust. So anyways, the next entry, which will probably come tonight since im bored, will be the start of this fun adventure.

like normal,
enjoy.

p.s. If i dont really know you/i dont talk to you pretty much everyday or grew up with you then you will need to leave me a comment for me to keep you on the friends list. love, me.